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Wednesday, November 9th, 2005
11:24 am	oh deary me some people are very silly arent they. just to clarify, those with any sense (thanx roo) will have gathered that i didnt post that. nor does anything in it have any relevance to anything whoever did it, thats a long post to write just to get a dig at me u must have been really bored huh? Current Mood: infuriated Current Music: nightwish (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, October 23rd, 2005
12:49 am	wow havent been on here for what seems like forever hehe so ill just give a brief overview of how things have been lol. erm, been to leeds fest which kicked some arse, working with kenzi are doing really really well :D eeeeeeee, gone to 6th form which really does kick arse loving it so much :D met loads of new friends :D yeeey. having a party lots later today lol :D an alice in wonderland party which truely will kick arse lol. and i guess the major difference between then and now is that im reasonably happy. its all down to the miracle that is denial, yeah life is still as shit as ever lol and as shit as it probly always will be but just pretend it isnt its like the miracle cure for depression lol, stuff is shit but lets smile anyway hehehe. and lets face it, at least theres no dinosaurs coming back from the dead and asking us to marry them ;) yet lol anyway. we shall see how that works out. ehy well was just reminding the lj world that miss flissy still exists hehe love to all xxxxxxxxxxx Current Mood: optimistic Current Music: wires, athlete (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, April 1st, 2005
12:36 pm	Advanced Global Personality Test Results Extraversion |||||||||||||| 56% Stability |||||||||||| 46% Orderliness |||||||||||| 43% Empathy |||||||||||| 43% Interdependence |||||||||| 36% Intellectual |||||||||||||||| 63% Mystical |||||||||||||| 56% Artistic |||||||||||||||||| 76% Religious || 10% Hedonism |||||||||||||||| 70% Materialism |||||||||||| 50% Narcissism |||||| 30% Adventurousness |||||||||||| 43% Work ethic |||||||||||| 50% Self absorbed |||||||||||| 43% Conflict seeking |||| 16% Need to dominate |||||||||||||| 56% Romantic |||||||||||| 43% Avoidant |||||||||||| 43% Anti-authority |||||||||||| 50% Wealth |||||||||||||| 56% Dependency |||||||||||||| 56% Change averse |||||||||||||| 56% Cautiousness |||||||||||||||| 70% Individuality |||||||||||||||||| 76% Sexuality |||||||||||| 43% Peter pan complex |||||||||| 36% Physical security |||||||||||||||| 70% Food indulgent |||||||||||||||| 63% Histrionic |||||||||||||||| 63% Paranoia |||||||||||||||||||| 90% Vanity |||||||||||||||| 63% Hypersensitivity |||||||||||||||||||| 83% Female cliche |||||||||||||||||||| 83% Take Free Advanced Global Personality Test personality tests by similarminds.com (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 24th, 2005
12:43 am	tonight just demonstrated to me how worthless i am. so unimportant my own father can forget me. i feel rejected, replaced, hurt, abandoned, angry, bitter. before tonight i hated him but i loved him aswell. right now, if he were right infront of me id either beat the shite out of him, or tell him exactly what i think of him, with no consideration for his feelings, if he is capable of any feeling. its the first time in my life, ive ever not loved my dad. all the things he's done to me, nothing hurt as much as what he said tonight, and ill never forgive him. there's no way im ever going to let him ruin anything special of mine ever again, he's not hurting me anymore... though i dont think its possible for him to hurt me much more anyway. Current Mood: crushed Current Music: Life House - Everything (Comment on this)
Friday, March 18th, 2005
3:30 pm	i really hope lj will make some sort of reference to St Georges day when that comes around also humph! (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 16th, 2005
11:05 pm	well now theres an odd colour to be, mustard yellow hmmm (2 Comments |Comment on this)
11:04 pm	flickwin (Comment on this)
10:59 pm	heya am finally back online heh, and believe me if an advert tries to con you into thinking that setting up new broadband is easy do not be fooled! i have a new found hatred for the internet, but ive missed msn so i recon i can forgive it....in time lol (Comment on this)
Sunday, March 6th, 2005
4:40 pm	heyloes, miss me?.........heh yer. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, February 26th, 2005
12:45 am	tonight was really kool. i love u guys. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 22nd, 2005
4:31 pm	heh and everyday i become just a little bit more insignificant. i think im gonna go, wonder who will notice first, probly my dog when she doesnt get fed. (Comment on this)
Monday, February 21st, 2005
8:43 pm	am happyish right now :) i got full marks for the origional writing coursework i did :) so am chuffed. am hoping my mood wont fade, am kinda liking being happy for once, im organising my weekend to cheer myself up, and i may go searching in the cupboard, i believe i saw some iced gems in there earlier :D (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 17th, 2005
12:17 pm	*sigh* am bored, am home doing physics coursework which really sux. i know it could be worse....i could be at school but i have a really bad evil tummy :( so i have to do this instead coz heaven forbid i should just sleep in *scowls at mother* ehy well, at least i have my music, and im not freezing my arse off stood by that bloody bench!!!! (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 15th, 2005
6:24 pm	wtf is the point....... (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, February 10th, 2005
7:38 pm	heh good day! (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 8th, 2005
12:32 am	im happy today, i was happy yesterday and dammit despite the odds i was happy saturday aswell :D 2nd place fuck yeah!!!!!!!! only two points behind the winners! im feeling pretty fandabby right now :D though everything isnt great, some things are still hurting, im feeling really great :D (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, February 6th, 2005
3:49 pm	another amazing night :D infact the whole day was great i had so much fun :D :D :D Luv all you guys to death *huggles* (Comment on this)
1:08 am	hehehe that party was awsome :D had so much fun :D yey good things happened! and a couple of annoying things like they stole my roo and set him on fire!!!! but milner saved him for me :D now he has half a leg and charred tail but with some physiotherapy im sur ehe'll be fine, he was pretty pissed anyway we were having drinking competitions, i mean admittedly i did have a slight advantage in that roo is a little toy kangaroo and im an amazing drinker but still it will have taken the edge off the pain. n yey met loads of nice new peeps! n saw loads of my fav old peeps :D it was awsome, im so pissed now though lololol (Comment on this)
Friday, February 4th, 2005
12:18 am	One day ill grow up and learn to accept the inevitable. One day ill learn to stop wanting what i cant have. One day ill realise theres a reason people dont like me, and thats me. One day ill understand that the only one that can change things is me. One day ill be able to forget things as they happen. One day i wont be scared of anyone. One day ill be strong. One day ill stop putting my pain onto others. One day ill be that person that my mums wants and never disapoint her again. One day ill never dissapoint anyone. One day ill never hurt anyone. One day ill be able to forgive. One day ill be able to love. I promise. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, February 3rd, 2005
3:45 pm	i hate how fast happy moods can fade but how stubborn bad ones are, *sigh* ill live though, ive had a reasonably good day, boring like but still quite fun in parts. me and kyle had a pen war and now i have several big penises drawn in the back of my history book lol and kyle has several big penises drawn on his elbow in permenant marker lol! i think i win there lolol. Had another insane conversation with kool southern dude at lunch lolol, he's so fun, he's like 4 foot tall with the best accent ever, especially when we talk about cartoons getting lynched lol. am going to my dads later, which im really nervous about, but i guess itll be okay, and if its not its just another part of my life thats pissing me off right now. Tomorrow shud be kool though, long band practise yeee. Im really not in the mood to go out this weekend but i have to, lots of band practises, and i wanna see lew and danny as i havent in ages so itll be kool. i have like no energy at all today, and especially none for arguing so if ure one of the masses that are pissed off with me today, please wait till tomorrow to have a go at me. (Comment on this)